Happily Ever After December 13, 2009
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From the day I can read, I’ve read a lot of books, and I mean a lotsszzz. In my young adult phase here, I come to realize one thing.
That I am a hopeless romantic but maybe I can’t really express it in a way that people tend to understand.
Let’s just say, in others eyes’ I am a very indifference person when it come to expression, especially to show someone that I really care about him/her.
So then, I started to think.. Is there a life happily ever after? Like many films, let’s say.. hmm, The Proposal (Sandra Bullock), Cloudy With A Chance of Meatballs (Flint and Sam, I know this is a 3D character, but who cares??), Ghosts of Girlfriends Past (Jennifer Garner), Enchanted (Patrick Dempsey), and et cetera et cetera..
The list goes on.
It’s all about finding your true love, your soul mate, the one who understand you and only truly you. *lol*.
But I think, this journey is not a short one, like say, college.
I think it’s a journey of a lifetime.
But even though the happily-ever-after won’t come now and then, we can pretend and hope that the happily-ever-after thing that they teach to every children in the world in the fairy tail we read or watch when we were children, is real. That goes, we can hope for the best happily-ever-after of our own versions.
And, I think there goes all my crap. LOL
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Actually, one more thing though, I really want to thank a few people, from whom I learn that love will never perish.. From whom I learn that love is a real thing, and from whom I learn that the fierceness of love is a never ending story. 
That’s all I can say either than the “thank-you-for-everything“-craps.
As for the living, never stop dreaming till it comes true
from.the.one.who.never.stop.dreaming
Specially dedicated to:
Ephen, Fanies, Ichel, Mel, Novarine, Sendhy, Yochie
(Ordered alphabetically) lol *winks*
Letting Go November 1, 2009
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The title is kinda easy to read, easy to say, easy to baffle, easy to blahh3x, but personally and maybe universally, the title NOT an easy thing to do.
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We all grow up.
Babies. Toddlers. Children. Teens.
Young adults. My phase now.
Afterward, adults. The phase with every possible responsibility in the world.
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With every step, we learn a lot of things.
To do this, and that, and blah.
Simply, we learn how to live wisely.
One of the best and the worst part of it, is to let go. Something, or someone.
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It is not easy. Simply put it, it is so DAMN hard it hurts everywhere.
But I did it.
And I am happy and proud of myself that I did it.
Rising Up, Rising Above October 30, 2009
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It’s not easy trying to not feel anything.
Today, I did the inevitable thing. No need to know what the ‘thing’ is, but still, it’s good to rise and be above.
My own feeling’s aside.
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Sometimes, life is simple. Like this day.
It started with a bath, and will ended with one. I know so.
But the important things that happened, happens between.
Like, my exam for example. I did good, I think.
And after that, my conversation with someone about love, kinda make me shivered a bit.
And then, I went to my friend’s birthday party. He turned 21 this week. Important mark for a boy, who’ll turn into a man. A good man.
And like now, I wrote about this thing and later I’ll make my cheat sheet for tomorrow’s exam. Not that I’ll cheat, but the professor told us to.
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Like I said, it’s not easy to not feel anything. A person you once loved, a person you once cared about, in front of you, but (s)he is dead to you now.
Not because you did something wrong.
Not because (s)he did something wrong.
I didn’t even know what the cause. But it hurt.
And I gotta hurt more before I feel good again. I have to rise up, and be a good man.
For I have to feel happy when I am really sad.
For I have to feel welcomed when I know that (s)he resent me.
For I have to feel like there is nothing there, when I know that the feeling is still there.
But after all this, then come the realization.
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The realization that you still are alive. It hits you. Hard. Harder.
The fact that you’re surrounded by the people you know, by the people you love, by the people you believe will be by your side no matter what your condition are.
The people you choose to be your family. My very good friends. Who happened to be there.
They still there. They supported me without even realizing that they did it.
They made my day happier than it should be. They made this ‘thing’ easier than it supposed to be.
And for that, I thanked you, my good friends.
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At the end of the day, I looked back and I know one thing.
That I passed this day. Without unwanted accident. Without cries or sobs.
At the end of the day, I knew that I rised up and above. To be a good man. A good person I’m supposed to be.
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the.one.who.never.stop.dreaming
NB: Thanks for Grey’s Anatomy TV Series. Many inspirations and words I used in this post.
blue-ish June 7, 2009
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that's life
With every breath we count,
With every breath we held,
With every breath we breathe..
Like all the stars, we shine and then we die
That’s the circle of life
Life is ephemeral, like love
Life is uncertain, like love
Life is full of possibility, like love
In the end, we live to love
We live to die
We live to be love and to be loved
We must admit, we all are animals
We need to eat
We need to fulfill certain desire
We need to express ourselves
And deep inside we know
We are mammals, the homo sapiens, the wise man
We live together, and we die alone
That’s life
the.one.who.never.ever.stop.dreaming
Keep fighting ’till the end.. June 4, 2009
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I’ve been in hell for so long, I did not realize the world has changed
The war is so bloody sodding exhausting
It took my will of life
It took every part of my body apart, crushed..
My brain fried
My finger cut
My feet bled
No, it isn’t fair. Not fair at all
I must work twice as hard
I must cry twice as sound
And still, I don’t get the point of this
Every night I have the same dreams
Whether or not this hell is gonna be forever
Whether or not this hell hole is still the same hole I’ve fallen years ago
Whether or not this hell giving me a worst life than before
And whether or not,
I’ll survive this
The pain is so unbearable I can’t breath
It caused so many damages inside
And outsides
Every night I have the same dreams
About the heaven
About the angel that will take care of me
About the eternity
It just is. Life.
the.one.who’ve.been.dreaming.of.her.own.heaven
Time April 3, 2009
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Time is not describable..
It flew,
It gone,
It hurts,
So much one can’t stand
But, it is meaningless and meaningfull
Time is only a variable, where one can see, but also the only variable one can depend on
Time is contradiction
Time is God
Time is time
Nevertheless, it also heals wound for the wounded one
Because we give what it takes to be the best
Because we give everything when it comes to love
Yes, because love rely on time, on a dimension we all couldnt see, but could feel.
the.one.who.never.stop.dreaming
a mother, wife, and daughter December 11, 2008
Posted by aurenessa in feel n breath, smart thoughts.Tags: love, mother
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As a girl, or just say, as one who’ve been raised by one (you wouldnt be raised by a monkey, would you??) we sometimes forget how important they are for us.
A good friend of mine once said:
Why we, as human dont give a bit appreciation to a mother, who’ve raised us till we become like this?
Why human just give Nobel to the one who offered peace?
Why just give Medal to the one whom brain really work as a computer?
Why cant we just sit, and realize that this people has raised us since when, since we were a fetus..
patient is gold September 19, 2008
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I think you have read this words for a thousand times.. But still, like other usual quotes we thought we would remember till the end of our life, this one is just passed by our memories..
If we sit still and think about our own life, we could remembered what happened in the past, what happened before this exact second we try to change ourselves..
Yes, patient is gold, and patient is virtue..
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One has waited for years for this moment to come..
One has waited patiently in silence..
One cries every night when nobody could hear..
One fights every day but nobody knows what one does..
Nobody acknowledge one..
Everybody else think that one does not exist..
Everybody else think one is just a trash..
Everybody and everybody and everbody,
Nobody pays attention at this special one..
The prove has finally risen, became a solid proof..
One no longer afraid..
One no longer silence..
Always and always..
Fought for us.. everyday and every night.. every second of our life..
Patient
Is what bring out the truth
That one is an angel
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Dedicated to: every angel in my little but big life 
angel_of_life
-one.who.dreams.of.an.angel-
the light of my life September 16, 2008
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It was you
The light of my life
The one that encouraged me when no one can
The one that trusted me when nobody will
The one that relied on me when nobody want to
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When I first saw you, you were so small, shy and lack of self-confident
When I first smiled at you, you were having a doubt one couldnt interpreted
When I first befriended with you, you were so strange I find it hard to believe
When I be your best friend, I ended it because the lack of trust between us
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It was dark that day..
The day I don’t want to bear having anymore.. The day when everything turned out to be wrong, the day when everything we built crashed to the depth of the earth..
The day when mother of nature angry with both of us..
The day when I felt lonely and empty.. The day when the emptiness excruciated my soul..
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I dont want to live without you anymore. I dont want to live in the dark anymore.
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Four years of friendship
We grew up together, having each other
We were being punished together (still remembered that part, eh? ^.^;)
Till now, looks like the nature still give us the time to be together…
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And here we are, being thankful for having each other
Loving each other
But still doubting each other
The hole havent recovered enough, me lite.. It still is having a tiny hole..
A hole that nobody but you could fill up..
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So happy birthday, my dear light.. Remember me saying my words to you today..
It better be noticed, because part of it could fill the hole I still feel this day..
Thank you for this four years
For being the light of my life
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from.the.one.who.always.dreaming
how to be happy in 10 sec September 16, 2008
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hehehehe does this post a bull? mhmm, I don’t think so…
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first of all, everyone deserved to be happy
secondly, the description of happy is different for every one and each person..
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so, how to be happy in 10 sec if your head just being boiled by many bad things that could happened in only 5 minutes?
relax guys, the life must goes on ^.^
it is so easy I’ve done it almost every moment I got spoiled..
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first, take a deep breath.. inhale and exhale slowly.. you could feel the air you breathed on.. and you would think that the air you always took for granted is a give for once.. this could calmed you.. (this thing could only take 5 sec)
second, close your eyes and realize that your heart is still breathing.. afterall, nobody knows where we’ll go after we died..
and third, realize that we just live for once.. unfortunately for us 
but maybe once is enough, eh?
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so.. take a look back.. see the other people is having the most biggest problem on earth existed.. not just the damn thing that made our head boiled at that moment..
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everybody has each of their own problems…
the difference is at solving it.. or reacting on it..
the problems is a gateway to be a better man alive and breathing on this pity earth..
look around, see that you are the luckiest person on earth ever alive..
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the.one.who.never.stop.dreaming
